Life doesn’t always turn out the way you thought it would. It took me a long time to realize that the void I was hoping someone else would fill, was my responsibility to heal. The more I focused on the lack of things in our relationship, the more we drifted apart. I had no idea how to love someone, because I didn’t know how to love myself. I was trying to do everything to ignore my issues than actually fix them.
Gratitude was a huge component was was missing in my life. After so many years of being in each other’s lives, of separating and reuniting again; something bigger than us kept us together. It wasn’t until I focused on healing my trauma that I was able to see the value of this relationship, the patience and love he’s shown me is unlike any other. I knew I owed it to myself and to our marriage to work hard and become the best version of me. Marriage is not easy! It’s work, the grass is only greener where you water it.
When we first got married, our daughter was a baby; we got married at the courthouse on the hottest day of summer. We never got the chance to celebrate our love, we were focused on so many things to balance and merge our lives together. It was so hard raising small children, struggling financially, starting new businesses and careers; we lost ourselves in the process.
After a long separation we decided to give our marriage a second try, we spoke about renewing our vows and doing things the way we always dreamed of. He’s always been so supportive of my dreams, including becoming my photographer. With the pretext that we were going to do a photoshoot he bought tickets to EdgeNYC, New York City’s new observation deck. This weekend, on the most perfect spring day, he proposed to me again. The breathtaking views were the perfect backdrop for the proposal, just like the first time, he was full of nerves and I cried like a baby. This time were gonna celebrate our love, because after all we’ve been through we deserve that. We owe it to ourselves, and to our children to celebrate or love. You guys have to check out Edge NYC, its absolutely beautiful and a must see. This day was validation to me of all the hard work I’ve done, I felt besides myself. It was such an unforgettable day.