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My Love, Hate Relationship With 2020…
I haven’t had the energy or mental capacity to write these last few months, to do anything in general actually; Except for the few moments of celebration like anniversaries or birthdays. It’s the toxic over productivity were programmed with, that has many of us feeling guilty for not doing much during this time. An introverts dream and an extroverts nightmare. It’s the normalization of what I’ve done during my depressive months that gave me a sense of peace; The binge watching nostalgic 90’s shows, rewatching Grey’s anatomy or Frasier for the thousandth time, the staying in bed all day. Life suddenly became less of a competition and time lost its…
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A riot is the language of the unheard.
I sit here in disbelief. The divide in this nation has reached a breaking point, with yet again another viscous murder of an unarmed Black man. I needed to take a break from the news, my heart hurting for this world, bringing me to tears. I decided to document my emotions, including writing this post. Firstly, I would like to clarify something; if you weren’t concerned when white men armed with assault rifles were marching demanding haircuts, then why is it that these riots bother you? We cannot continue on the hamster wheel we’ve been on. It’s clear to see that privilege is so deeply engrained, you no longer care…
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An Awakening: A Nation On Lockdown.
What a difference a few weeks can make, just a few weeks ago I had a full list of events I was dying to get out of. Nowadays a much more surreal experience has our cities shutting down, forcing us to hibernate indoors in fear of this deadly virus. Don’t get me wrong do I think they created mass hysteria instead of making people feel secure? Yes. But as an asthmatic who’s been hospitalized for low oxygen I became alarmed. I allowed myself to feel this emotion, flooding my eyes with news that did more harm than good. It’s important for us to inform ourselves but it’s also important for…
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The Many Faces Of Depression
Let’s face it the number of people suffering from depression seems to be at an all time high. For some people like myself, it’s a chemical imbalance and sometimes can take years to diagnose because it comes in so many forms. For some it’s recovering from trauma and having to take medication to cope, Sometimes it can be seasonal blues or just overthinking. When we’re younger seeking to be older to make our own rules and do what we want seems so liberating; But as we get older the responsibilities prove to be more than we can take at times. Years ago my depression was disguised in many ways; I…
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Manifesting Your Best Life
Most people live their lives led by fear, people naturally feel disappointed when things don’t go their way, they then blame the fact that maybe they jinxed it and shared with someone else and that’s why it didn’t work out. That’s not it, but we’re so used to projecting our insecurities on others so we don’t realize it. You hear people talk about manifesting everyday, and it sounds crazy. In order for you to manifest you have to believe, you have to see yourself accomplishing it. This requires more faith in oneself than most people have, it all comes back to those limiting beliefs that keep us trapped behind walls…
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The Power Of Intention
Ever since I was little I knew about the power of intention, without knowing what it truly meant. My dad taught me about the power of prayer, which is faith in knowing. As i grew older if i wanted something bad enough I would attract it. However our limiting beliefs begin to shift our mindset, and life can become a series of stressful situations if we allow it. Around 7 years ago I came across a book that changed my life, the magic. For years the secret swept across the world spreading the message of gratitude, and how your the power of gratitude could change your life. Going back to…
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What are chakras? And how can they help me & how I feel about myself?
As I get older I love learning more about myself, and learning more about what helps balance me. For a long time I knew of my power, of how strong I am, I was taught about practices that my ancestors used for their spirit. As I got older I felt I lost my connection to my spirit, I honestly felt like the world around me was against me; until I realized it was me who was my enemy. I was in a war with myself, carrying trauma with me until It wore me down. At a recent healing retreat I was reintroduced to learning about my chakras, something I knew…
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Releasing your pain & reclaiming your power!!! The Empowered You Retreat changed my life!
One of the many things the last couple of years have shown me, is that healing isn’t linear. I focused on healing, healing the pain that was only really on the surface, not even considering childhood pain. I went to therapy, had a mood journal, took my anti depressants and still felt like i’d never feel like myself again. My self doubt was high and my self worth was low, I identified with my pain so much i believed that pain was always a part of me. i began to really ask God, the Universe, my Angels for help; I was ready for the shift. I had forgotten my power,…
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I began journaling for a month, and here’s what I learned…
Two years ago I began my mental health journey, once I was diagnosed with bi polar depression and anxiety I felt more in control. I felt that there was finally a light at the end of that never ending tunnel. My therapist suggested I should start keeping a journal, to keep track of my emotions. It reminded me of my younger self, and how I loved keeping a diary. I found that in my loneliest, saddest moments keeping a journal helped release some of that tension; it was therapy in itself. I could say whatever I felt and with each word a part of me felt less alone. So years…
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FOMO: the effects of social anxiety in the social media age.
When I was in my twenties I had huge FOMO (the fear of missing out). I felt left out at times, missing the “cool” events and not having the right connections. This only heightened when I became a mother, I felt like my world went in another direction than everyone else. My mind, body and soul was no longer the same, and my depression grew as social media took over our lives. I remember how Facebook began my fear of missing out on love, as everyone I knew was getting engaged and married, or the photoshop craze that took over Instagram made me hate my life and especially my body.…
