What a difference a few weeks can make, just a few weeks ago I had a full list of events I was dying to get out of. Nowadays a much more surreal experience has our cities shutting down, forcing us to hibernate indoors in fear of this deadly virus. Don’t get me wrong do I think they created mass hysteria instead of making people feel secure? Yes. But as an asthmatic who’s been hospitalized for low oxygen I became alarmed. I allowed myself to feel this emotion, flooding my eyes with news that did more harm than good. It’s important for us to inform ourselves but it’s also important for us to remain calm, because fear does weaken the immune system. Also, please be mindful that not everything you read online is accurate. Your mind is so freaking powerful, it creates scenarios that never actually occur. Fear is just as powerful, it’s an emotion it’s not who you are; it’s something you should ease not hold on to. So after my minutes of panic as I started to see the reality of this pandemic, I became more grounded did some meditations and started preparing myself for the weeks to come. Focusing on the now, the day to day. And that’s what you need to focus on, what can you do? Instead of fearing “what could happen”. We see some countries suffer with horrible things all the time, but since it doesn’t effect us directly we turn the blind eye. We’ve been on the fast paced track for so long, more and more people experiencing depression and anxiety. So many people feeling lost, disillusioned and in need of a break. The pressures of not being able to stop, because they can’t even afford their way of life is all too common.
For months I had become more withdrawn, not necessarily in a depression but not wanting to be out as much. I felt a shift coming, the need to rest, I needed to save my energy for something special. And yet here we are, my years of getting more in depth with myself and meditation has finally paid off. I turned to my root chakra immediately for grounding and breathing, and felt a sense of peace come over me right away. I have my medications, breathing equipment, sea moss gel, multivitamin, eucalyptus oil, peppermint oil, lavender oil, diffuser on deck! I got this! Owning my power for things I can control. This pandemic is interesting on a few levels. One being, the sense of home and community we have seem to have lost. People are so self centered now, evident in our toilet paper fiasco or selling out shelves while others suffer. Everyone’s always looking for things to do, to show off online, to deflect their trauma on. We’re now forced indoors and have the time to reflect and heal those things we’ve been avoiding. Two, it shows how out of date our education system is. People spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on an education at an institution for a degree that is oftentimes not useful. During this epidemic we see how quickly we transitioned online, all of the resources are now available on our computers. The kids can perfectly learn with their teacher on zoom from the comfort of their homes. An online degree is now equally acceptable, and those who disagree usually are speaking from ego. You are not more ahead in life because you have your degree. Someone with a master and someone without one are currently both without jobs; no one is better than the other. They’ve shown us that jobs are disposable, and those who get paid the most are sitting back while those with the lowest paying jobs are on the frontline. A shout out to our nurses and doctors who shouldn’t have to work without basic supplies; shout-out to the supermarket clerk who’s making sure you have food. The system we were taught to believe in sometimes let’s us down, we become dependent and defeated instead of strong and empowered.
I have no idea how long this thing is going to last or how bad it is gonna get, but I do know that right now I am healthy, I’m with the people I love and we’re blessed. We have so much to be grateful for, and so much to learn about ourselves. We can’t just keep abusing ourselves and the earth, we have to learn to adjust to changes without complaining. Empower yourself with things that can make your life easier, and give out the energy you want to receive. Humble yourself, realize the world doesn’t revolve around you and your problems; there’s people going through way worst and you should respect that. Never say never, because that’s when life makes an example out of you. Take this time to start that project you’ve been meaning to, you’ll notice yourself with more energy on those days. Take this time to reach out to your family and friends and stay home so we can heal.